HOW DR DEATH BECAME DR LIFE CHAPTER 17: GOODBYE DR DEATH:
I HAVE ALWAYS BELIEVED IN GOD. When I was growing up in Colorado my parents would take me and my siblings to church every sunday. It felt very relaxed and comfortable there. THE STAFF THERE WERE VERY NICE PEOPLE TOO. I HAD ALOT OF RESPEECT FOR THAT CHURCH. I LEARNED ABOUT PRAYER, JESUS CHRIST, THE HOLY SPIRIT, AND ETERNAL LIFE.
Throughout my years from high school to the early years of pro wrestling, I didn't go to church on a regular basis but I tried to live a good lifestyle. I WAS TAUGHT THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN RIGHT AND WRONG. HOWEVER I VERY OFTEN GAVE IN TO THE TEMPTATIONS OF THOSE LATE NIGHT PARTIES AND LOOSE WOMEN. I ALWAYS BELIEVED IN GOD THOUGH!
I wasn't a bad guy or evil. I never hurt anyone deliberately and always opened my heart to those in need.
When I met my ex wife TAMMY my relationship with God began to change. I began to go to the church she was apart of SHREVEPORT COMMUNITY CHURCH ASSEMBLIES OF GOD DENOMINATION.
Though I wasn't familiar with this house of worship I wanted to improve my relationship with God and be a good husband so I began to go to church with TAMMY every Sunday. SOME TIME IN MY EARLY 30S AT THIS CHURCH I ACCEPTED JESUS CHRIST AS MY LORD AND SAVIOR.
During my times off I went to church with my family as often as I could. I really wasn't home much at all. In between my wrestling tours in Japan and the USA, I tried my best to be a good parent, husband, and to improve my relationship with God.
Wrestling business is so tough. I tried my best to behave while I was on the road but I was wild, crazy, and ambitious. It would take my mind off relationship with God and how much I wanted to improve it. All I could think about was making money so that my family could have everything they ever wanted or needed which I couldn't have when I was young. A BIG HOUSE, FANCY CARS, AND BRACES FOR MY DAUGHTERS TEETH.
Unfortunately me and Tammy got a divorce and this really hurt. Tammy and our two kids, STORM AND WYNDHAM, had been the center of my world and now they were gone. Grief stricken and anxious as well as angry guilty and depressed about how I would live. THOUGH I KNEW THE LORD I WAS STILL RUNNING HARD. Believing it was the best way to deal with the demands of the wrestling business and the pain of my divorce I started drinking alcohol, smoking pot, and doing drugs.
I was determined not to back to church. I wasn't denouncing my faith or salvation I just simply wanted no part of the ASSMEBLIES OF GOD anymore. I stayed away for a couple of weeks but I could feel that there was an emptiness inside so I went back. I began to enjoy church again. I was hurting from the divorce but all these people in the church loved me like a brother in Christ and that made me feel better. IT ALSO BROUGHT COMPASSION AND PEACE TO MY LIFE AND I ONCE AGAIN COMMITTED MY LIFE TO JESUS CHRIST.
Though I had accepted the lord before I was backsliding. I was still smoking and drinking so that I could deal with my stress and I was doing drugs to keep up with the wrestling business. Again I was chasing the money so that I could provide my family with a good future and I forgot all about my relationship with God.
I FINALLY HIT ROCK BOTTOM IN SEPTEMBER 2003 WHEN I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH STAGE 4 THROAT CANCER. The doctors said I only six months left to live maybe a year. I WAS SCARED BUT DEEP DOWN I KNEW BETTER THERE HAD BEEN ONLY ONE PERSON WHO HAD BEEN BY MY SIDE DURING THE GOOD AND BAD TIMES. IT WAS GOD.
Throughout my life the Lord had always been carrying me and I know longer wanted to do things my way which I had spent my whole life doing. FACING MY PROBLEMS LIKE NEVER BEFORE I TURNED TOWARD GOD. I STOPPED DRINKING ALCOHOL, SMOKING, AND DOING DRUGS FOR GOOD AND I COMPLETELY SURRENDERED MY LIFE TO THE LORD.
